Thursday, April 2, 2009
of errant hearts and broken promises...
cant believe im writing you an actual letter. i mean, in this day
and age :P but, i've always been better at explaining myself in
print when it comes to things like this...
babe... im sorry. i wish i was more mature. you'd think id be
better at handling these things. but im probably still as
emotionally erratic and volatile as i was when we first knew
each other. im sorry if i hurt you... i should be the last
person to do that. i guess... it was kind of a mutual
thing... the eventuality of a break-up. but it shouldn't
have happened like that. i shouldn't have let it happen
and im sorry to leave you hanging in the air... i mean,
i know u need someone the most now. i officially suck at
relationships, seeing as how i've botched one with you,
what with the history and EVERYTHING that we share...
but babe... im not losing you over this, am I? were not
gonna be random strangers on the street who will say
awkward greetings because they sort of knew each other?
cause that's the worst thing that could ever happen
to us... i still need you in my life. i don't think ill
ever NOT want you in my life. ever. you know that right?
if makadayon ko anha, we'll spend time with each other...
ill hug you and then hang out and talk like adults. or at
least pretend to be adults. it doesn't have to be anything
specific... i'm not gonna interrogate you or anything...
promise. just need to have some of the old US back.
i know you don't like it when i say that. but you know what
i mean when i say i miss us...
i miss you... :(
i'm sorry if i hurt you...
ps don't go finding a new girl just yet. you know ill be all emo
and be jealous as hell... wait for me to get there...