Wednesday, November 23, 2011

break


i felt pain from reading her words.
a goddamned caption and yet it was searing enough
that i felt something inside break.

she doesn't know how lucky she is.
i had all that time with him and i tried so hard.
i wasn't sure enough to start it. he wasn't sure
enough to broach it.

but i did try. i tried so goddamned hard.

then she came.

and now they have months and probably
will have years to their name, if not the rest of
their lives.

i am breaking.
i am seething.
i am... resigned.

i was too broken to begin with.

i couldn't have kept him.

i'm just not whole enough.